Moving from being a warrior in Mongolia (Asia) to a tobacco farmer  in Pakistan,

skipping an incarnation planned for Ireland, which had to be aborted.

Headed on alone to a lifetime in England  - heaven only knows what you got up to there!!

Then to another, this time it is the last destined for your time on Earth, in Australia.

Then you head back to your own world of evolved and gentle folk and subtle energies of love and harmony -

AFTER you meet up with us all at the Banquet. You will be guided there.











This is another way for me to speak to you. Even if accidentally found, no-one can know who is addressed to. Yes, perhaps being a bit ‘secretive’ as you said... but ever guarding your reputation. Ah, the intricate ways of the world.  

I know you don’t remember … and fortunately for me the higher part of me wins over moments of wistful longing of the complete bliss of our old connection, and in some place of understanding and wisdom I manage to pull from 'someplace' - I respect that not remembering is ultimately a good thing for you. We block recall of past lives for many reasons.

Do you know we used to talk about everything? For literally hours and hours on end we talked, year in and year out, never once running out of things to express, work out, understand and perhaps change about us, our work colleagues, partners, children, our country and the world. Our wives were probably lucky we had each other to unload on. We spoke in great detail about all our thoughts and feelings, our innermost desires, our hopes, dreams and aspirations for our future and that of our children, and what we wanted from life and our partners. Yes, and of having the money to do so many things! We learnt together to be better lovers and husbands by exchanging thoughts and ideas in areas we felt would help us better understand teenage love, and later marriage, in all its aspects. Any disagreement we had with other people, be it with parents as we grew up, or later with wives, was discussed and sorted out between us.

We knew everything there was to know about each other. We felt our bond was way stronger than that of brothers, for we had chosen to be around each other. It wasn’t compulsory! Talk about being a backbone for each other! No other could have done it better. Our wives used to say we were two tobacco leaves stuck together.

From dawn till dusk, we played as youngsters, from after school until we were hauled inside. We swam in rivers, ran from the cows (after annoying them!) and laughed until our sides split. And as youths and then adults, after breakfast in our respective homes, we joined again, in total harmonious companionship, so very comfortable with each other… from dawn until dusk again; sharing, caring, working, having breaks sitting against stacks of gathered leaves - bringing us and the world to rights, deciding on a better future path for our country and dreaming of how maybe it would be us that could rise up into political realms and make the changes we could see would benefit the people - and of course, make changes that would help all of us hard working farmers!

It was a clean love; a pure love. It never once entered our heads that it was anything other than complete love as brothers. No thought in us arose even to the idea of exploring our deep connection further sexually. Probably that was the about the only thing we didn’t discuss! Because we simply totally knew what we had and had placed it firmly in its right bed for that lifetime.

The incarnation was clear, and we remembered nothing of previous times of either being incarnated on Earth or of the many times you and I had connected previously in other worlds. We were simple folk. We were kind and considerate, of everyone. We were well liked and known to help out any neighbours who needed a hand. It was a good life; fulfilling and a gentle life; probably appreciated even more after the tough one we just had previously as warriors.  This time we had the time to allow the love we had to simply be as it was. We didn’t have to appear tough! This time we could laugh and cry and talk and hug, freely with abandon, and it was all OK with everyone. We hugged a lot. It was special and was a way we could express something that went beyond any words. Our wives knew they could not compete with such a bond; it was accepted by them as completely OK that they came second. They laughed about it to each other, saying…. at least we know they also love us. It really was alright. They were not pretending. I secretly thought they were probably quite happy we weren’t hanging around under their feet. Now I know that was so and was a factor in their total acceptance of how close we were and the time spent with each other.

I miss both the talking and the hugging. I really, really do…..

MESSAGE March 27th



I was sort of getting something when you mentioned your bother. I have gotten hold of it. But please only accept what rings true for you, as always.

Re brother – you are both friends and known to each other from times prior to incarnating into human form.

You both made an agreement before either of you entered human form that you would not assist each other during incarnations and you had actually planned to try and avoid being incarnated together. But, another being who was going to step into that role (of your brother) in this incarnation was held up, helping elsewhere. So, despite not being something either of you had originally planned or wanted (because both of you wanted to ‘do it alone,’ so to speak) he ended up having to step in and take the role.

The reason for the existing problem is obvious really. You have simply worked out a way to stick to the original plan you both made. It is not from any lack of love. A situation was created that would serve well enough – to ensure you did not help each other. Both have quite short spans into human incarnation and wanted to make it without each others assistance.

Hope it helps. I cannot help unless I know about it. That is one reason it means a lot to me to have the chance (and time) to talk with you casually, which gives the opportunity for things like this to come up in conversation. From my perspective, knowing this sort of stuff can help concentrate our attention on areas that matter, instead of expending energy into stuff that is just fine as it is.


There are benefits to us talking, you know. Please don’t ever let yourself get to the stage of ‘burn out’ or into any overly upset condition - while I am still here and may be able to help. Taking time to connect can help. I can’t promise but I’ll always have a damn good try! As I have said before, it is NEVER even the slightest imposition. It is my job, my pleasure and fulfills my promise to you.

What talking achieved today. Aside from the crystal programme and healing from AA Raphael… via ‘talking,’ we found a possible answer about your brother. We also found, what may turn out to be a much bigger issue, which was your decision prior to coming here the first time - that ‘being  industrious’ was the way to achieve learning in human incarnation.

The point I want to make of  why talking together has always felt important to me - for example, in this situation - it was not possible for the higher realms to handle that situation. It was your decision – your choice - and no-one can override that. It would have gone on. They needed your permission to change it.

As you were discussing it today, AA Raphael picked up exactly what you really wanted – which was something more around the idea of ‘operating in the divine flow’ - instead of HAVING  to be industrious to get anywhere. Because you gave your permission to change it, he was able to add help for that into the crystal. I hope you can follow what I mean!!! Actually, thinking about the incarnations I was a part of, you also were incredibly industrious! So, it actually seems real to me that it was the way you planned for ALL the incarnations.

Remember to hold the crystal over next 3 weeks


28th March

From my perspective, you are on track to achieve what you set out to gain from the physical incarnations you planned. You have been on track all along, but now you’ve knocked out some of the factors that were making it a more difficult learning path than it needed to be. Some are gone, some are currently leaving and of course there are a few other things still to be addressed. But removing patterns such as; helping the injured and troubled; having to work really hard to gain your incarnated goals; etc. plus maybe reviewing the idea (as Metatron suggested in last message) about whether you really need to go out of your way to experience extra (unplanned) things JUST so you can take those details back to your higher realm beings.

With you working on letting go of feelings of impatience and annoyance; plus catching judgements (of yourself and others) and moving more and more into the heart and the intuitive soul…. you’ll start to find your remaining time here so much easier.

And thank God for that! I REALLY want you to do well – for my sake!! Otherwise, I can just hear the conversation at the banquet, if you missed even one of your goals! I know you so well. I’m going to have my ears blasted. You’re going to give me heaps, telling me I should have tried harder; I should have twisted your arm up your back. I KNOW you will. You’ll say – Because I knew you hadn’t been incarnating for long, I should have taken extra care to make sure you knew to grasp this chance fully, because it’s bloody rare!

And the problem is – you will be right! That would be what I would expect too, if it were me. If I had only a few lifetimes under my belt and was determined to achieve EVERYTHING during those very few lives – and the person who promised they’d be there to help me in my last incarnation, didn’t help me get all the garbage out of my sphere so as to make it easier for me to grab as much experience and knowledge packed into the last life as possible (knowing I was never coming back into a 3D world, in such an incarnated form – ever!) and didn’t bloody make sure I was set on the right path (dare I say, perfect path)  - I’d be having a go at them too!

Of course, I’m not going to push! I made myself available for help for many months and you knew it. You’re an adult. You make choices. I even extended my time here.  And that will be the case I will present you (up there)!! So, there!! I will win. Ha!

So for heaven’s sake.. (well, my sake!) work on listening to your intuition/ stop any judgments/ love instead of impatience or intolerance.

Be the exquisite YOU I know you are - always.

P.S. And of course, I'm not going to get any roasting from you (up there) because you are going to make every one of the goals you set yourself.  If I'm super lucky I may get a snippet of praise for the brief intervention I made into your life where maybe I helped a tiny bit when it was needed!! And that will be plenty enough for me, because I'll be so happy that my buddy achieved what he went for.




I know you aren’t keen on furry toys! Which is precisely why I gave you the little furry chap. It’s to reflect that moment in the future when you realise there is magic in ‘everything’. When you understand you don’t need to avoid ideas of fairies and unicorns and pretty things that fall out of envelopes, in order to be ‘human.’ Those things trigger another dimensional awareness and are also necessary for human growth potential and evolution.

By the way, I named him Chewbacca (from Star Wars) - the significance being ‘Chew Tobacco’,  just a bit of fun to leave a memory of tobacco fields. Yes, you can throw him away! But I wouldn’t.  He has a reason to be.

Understanding the beauty and magic of other dimensional beings and their representation in human form (toys, pictures, etc.), can open up the possibility to connect to more magical higher and lighter realms of existence. ALL higher dimensions exist within this lighter subtle energy, therefore to deny part of such existences (even at its minimum level of soft toy representation – it is still a thought pattern and has power) may deny access to communications that can come to us from such worlds.

Different ideas arise that can prevent us allowing the subtle energy kingdoms into our human thinking. Some people feel they are sufficiently in touch with their feminine side and perhaps think that acknowledging such things could tip the scales (it wouldn’t); some who are already from those subtle kingdoms, avoid getting too close to lighter, finer energy to ensure they remain firmly in the human experiment; others may think it is truly not part of what being human is - believing learning existence here to be of a much tougher countenance. All have merit when viewed through the mind. None are truth.

What is truth? It is simply being who we are, without adding a myriad of patterns around us that control our life in specific directions on paths we have chosen from places of mind and ego – patterns that dictate what we can and can’t do; what we should and must do; need to and have to do.

In the end, the answer will come to each and everyone – and that final realization will be ‘All I really had to do was be myself.’ I didn’t need to strive to get ‘somewhere’. I just needed to release everything I’d created that was not the truth of who I really am. And to make sure I didn’t keep creating patterns that would separate me from that essence and would take me further away from who I am really am – which is an exquisite being of light, moving through the universal dimensions, reflecting the light of God, moving gently in the divine flow, as I continue to learn and gain a deeper understanding of All That Is.


3rd April


Thank you for the text.

Yes, you planned our crossing paths/Yes, we arranged it long ago.

Yes, I wish I’d been smart enough to arrange such a thing for my own final incarnation! It would have saved me a lot of struggle and searching! Clever you.

As incredible as it sounds, people really do make some pretty elaborate arrangements to ensure they 'cross paths’– even to the extent of moving to Palm Beach from England! You’d think logically that such things are just co-incidences. But no, they are not.

Feeling the rightness to leave the UK, and realising I was meant to go back to Australia, there was only one place I had in mind to go – Palm Beach -  for no apparent reason other than I’d been there a couple of times in earlier years and it was a nice spot. Led to the right unit by the estate agent RAPHAEL (who left the agency a week after he arranged my sale!). The other owners told me the letter boxes were not considered safe because they were on the street and an older style that was easy to get into by passers by - SO I got a PO Box at Palm Beach PO here in the town. Then the Palm Beach PO closed down and we all had a choice to get PO boxes transferred to Burleigh PO or the Pines. No hesitation. I swapped to the Pines. So, out of the blue and apparently unplanned - that brought me to The Pines every couple of days.  Exactly where I was meant to be - for the connection to the Portal and to keep my promise to you (both unknown to me consciously, at the time.)

Re your text….I’ve never heard of it happening either! Hey, maybe we are just smart by thinking ahead  - to get rid of superfluous stuff you really didn’t need to take up time viewing it and going down unnecessary paths!

By the way, you know I’ve said I do some work while I am sitting there!! (I didn’t plan that very well, did I? – paying instead of being paid!). Well, I think the cosmic clan are all doing work while we are there. The others not so consciously aware of it though. However, we do all agree that we are ‘out of time’ while we are there. I know technically we're there for hours (thank you for having us!) but actually, it seems like ‘no time’ to all of us. We feel we're there for just a short time. I don’t know if you have experienced that sort of thing. I have many times. 

It’s a bit hard to get your head around the ‘time’ thing. It is possible for anyone to move out of the time frame, do work, and then drop back in to the right time slot so that no-one else experiences our absence. On a few of the spiritual journeys I’ve been on, this has happened. Sometimes there have been 70 or 100 of us, doing some important spiritual task somewhere in the world - that absolutely had to be successfully completed. There’ve been several times where we tried and failed – SO we go ‘out of time’ and just keep doing it until we succeed  - and then drop back in the same time slot – and it seems 'no time' has passed. Although, for us, sometimes we do spot signs that give us clues we did this. It is not that we consciously choose to go out of time (although I have done this) it just happens because it has to – and we are helped to do that by the higher realms.

And the banquet (after mission party) is also 'out of time' as it is in the 5th dimension that has no linear time and exists in the present moment. That means any of us can just go there when we finish on Earth and wait for friends to join us when they finish. So, it's not like we are waiting around for years for our buddies to finally get there. Hard to explain. It is just we're there – and then suddenly someone else arrives and then others arrive. But we haven’t been sitting in a ‘time frame’ wondering ‘how long  will it be before they arrive’.  Great fun, seeing all the people we have loved and shared these times with on Earth.

Yes, I removed a couple of the messages, after knowing you'd read them. Just the more personal stuff about my friends. I don’t know whether to leave messages/pics there or if you prefer they are deleted once you have seen them. I can also put the deleted messages back if you want me too. But regardless, it’s good for me to have this page. It’s a great email substitute and gives me a chance to talk – which, as you know, I miss!

Every now and again, I find myself smiling about us annoying the cows. It is a very clear image I have. We thought we were just so bloody brave…young boys, we would sneak up behind the cow (not even a bull!) and prod its rump with a little stick. Having it turn its head around to us, constituted in our mind, that it was going to chase us .. and we would run away as fast as we could, through the field, past the fence and we’d collapse on the ground laughing, in the joy we had escaped the wrath of the cow. We really believed that! In fact, the cow probably had just turned right back to the task of eating grass and never given a thought to the minor annoyance we’d created. But in our minds, we were courageous.. brave beyond belief. It was part of growing up – and we got up to all sorts of similar innocent mischief. Ah, youth!

Wouldn’t it be handy to know exactly when we are ‘leaving’ a lifetime. I suppose that’s asking too much! At least, I possibly have more of an idea than most. Well, I am balanced with the ideas of both staying or going. I’ve never seen anyone stay for long after they are finished, which is totally fine with me. For me - 1. I’d need a good reason to stay (i.e. I can help more being here) 2. I would have to really want to stay 3. Physically, there’d need to be major change. I don’t see any of those things occurring.

But just ignore my waffling. Life is fun. Leaving is fun. All good.

Message 4th April


I’m not sure why I’m mentioning this, but it crossed my mind twice this morning, so I will. I’ve kind of learnt to do that, as there seems to always be a reason – which may not be evident for ages!! Maybe I told you already, but I feel to say it.

One of things I seem to be able to do is assess the mathematical percentage of workability of many things. Things such as the correct location to place objects/buildings or maybe how workable a product is – that type of thing. People sometimes bring things to the market for checking – stuff like anti radiation/energy equipment; health products they’ve made like creams, oils, essences, liquids, cannabis, etc. Anyway, just so you are aware of that if ever needed.

I have a story about mathematical codes and synchronicity!! If you think about the odds of this happening, I think it’s quite a remarkable cases of synchronicity.

I was in Goa in southern India and had been backpacking through India. I’d been in the village for just 2 days and was staying one more. I would have an early morning swim (my shower!) and then go to the Village Well and draw up some drinking water in a goatskin bag hanging there. Ah, a different life than on the Gold Coast.

The beach was usually deserted, but this day there was a cow (it’s God, you know!) and a white girl sitting on the sand reading a book. I went over and said hello – to the girl, not the cow! We started chatting. She was from the USA and said she was on her way to England. I told her I lived in England. She mentioned spiritual interests and I said I was into that too. We chatted for a while and she mentioned she was going to England to see a particular person to get some help with the mathematics of some light essence products she’d produced. I mentioned I knew a bit about mathematical values and maybe I could help? She said ‘Thanks anyway, but I know I need to see this person’. She said she had their address but hadn’t been in touch yet - and would probably just arrive on their doorstep. I asked her if she recalled where they lived. She fished out her address book and I looked the address. Yep, she was coming to the UK to see me. She had some products she considered extremely important to get precisely right, and was bringing them to the UK to get the mathematical percentage of workability of each one – and see what/if anything - needed changing. She had the products in her room in the village. We went there and did the work. She said she’d now return to the USA, as she didn’t need to go to the UK anymore.

Don’t you love this universe!




6th April

Well, you may be sorry you said you aren’t tired of ‘The Page,’ cause I have time to chat. A quiet day, the ocean lapping. have handled emails and helped where I can. Now it’s time for me.

So, there is a new mathematics in the universe – your name Cube. OK, I will just let Metatron know. He likes to keep up with this sort of stuff!

I deliberately mentioned a few spiritual type things (such as the Metatron cube and ‘past lives’) in the conversation today at coffee with Jo. Just opening up that line of thought more, so they see you more in a spiritual understanding vein.

Is there anything you particularly want to know, that I could add to ‘the page’? (IF I happen to know it!!)  Or is there any area you no longer need there that I should delete? Not that there’s a shortage of web space - I have heaps. It’s just I don’t need to leave stuff there that you’re fed up seeing!

But as I told you, the connection we have is also helping me. Before we leave Earth, everything has to be in balance – all aspects of our life. I was pretty sure I’d reached a nice balance point regarding staying/leaving - and there was nothing/no-one on Earth I would miss. But as ever, just when we think we’ve got it all worked out - the universe says ‘maybe not quite’. I mentioned before to you about feeling a bit sad we don’t talk. Just my silly stuff. As ever, when I spot something non optimum in my life, I look at it. I flooded it with violet light (violet light transmutes sad emotions) and it seemed to go. It didn’t show itself for a while, but today I see it’s still there. Bummer. At least it’s altered, so maybe I handled some of it. Now I can see I’m not just missing us chatting in ‘a couple of lifetimes’ -  I’m also missing all the times (26 Metatron told me) we swooped in from our higher dimensions to different planets and ‘saved the day’, so to speak - and the joy that gave us. So, I guess it boils down to missing communicating on that level – with someone I feel really close to. Yes, I know you’re not up to speed on all that… but you will be - once you are back in that dimension. At the moment, of course you aren’t. But I still remember it, that’s the problem. It’s not a big problem – just something else for me to handle. Ah, 3D life. Sigh!

You are way more evolved than you realise. But that is OK; you didn’t come here to remember who you were. You came to learn whatever gifts humans may have to add to your repertoire!  

Nice to see you today. I know for me, it makes a difference. Sort of feels comfortable, like an old shoe!! Ha, new title. Skywalker, Obe Wan Kanobe, angel, old shoe!

7th April

Hello angel,

Organic stallholders have a great passion for healthy organic food. There is nothing in their make up that would want to deliver anything that wasn’t ethically providing food that embraced health and vitality. They are not just a business, but a caring community who are there to really serve others. These people have a great integrity in their products, which in the main they tend and care and grow themselves, and deliver with their heart and soul. Ever stall holder is like that. Although they are earning some money, that is not their main focus. Many come a long way, driving from points north and south. We know these people. Most have been coming for many years. If anyone mentions an item was not ripe enough or anything other than was expected, they immediately get another (or several) free. By the way, the market runs 52 weeks a year, rain hale or shine. Some have driven through floods at times, to get to us, to make sure we get our veggies! A good bunch.

When we were used to eating food with artificial chemicals, sugar, etc. – the really healthy stuff tasted just yuk! But if determined, with a little perseverance and sticking with it, the body re-adjusts and the addictions to all the different chemicals disappear. Our taste buds are restored and suddenly what was once yuk! now tastes delicious (believe it or not!). Instead of the body having to constantly fight to counteract the chemical intake from food and products used in the home - it can use all its energy to bring health and harmony to the body. Just saying!

This is not about synchronicity, but it was kind of interesting. Some of us were sitting on the grass on the top of the pyramid in Bosnia, doing some work unblocking the energy lines through to the top. The Ascended Masters (who I reverently call ‘the mob’) told me I’d know when the work was finished as the earth would shake. I thought - that’s just great! We’re doing all this work and we’re going to get an earthquake or something. Half hour later, sitting there with closed eyes - the earth really started to shake! You could hear it pounding. I opened my eyes as that was the sign we had finished. Out of nowhere, 3 wild, white (real) horses were galloping; thundering up the side of the hill. Where the heck had they come from? It was a lot more fun than an earthquake!! They stopped right next to us and I patted them. The Masters sense of humour, no doubt!




Another special moment was also in India. I was at a Shivratri festival in southern India. Early mornings I’d go down to the beach and watch the dawn come up over the ocean. Many monks did the same, sitting close to the shoreline. I sat further back, away from them.  They seemed to accept me being there – either from the fact that I was dressed all in white or they felt the higher energy around me, not sure. One morning a dog came close to me. Sadly, dogs are not considered worthy creatures there. Stray dogs barely survive and live in constant fear. Being a huge dog lover, that’s not easy for me to see. Slowly, I convinced this dog that I wasn't going to kick him. It took a while but I coaxed this skinny, cowering dog onto my lap and started gently patting him. He was on guard ready to vanish in a moment if the need arose, but was so appreciating the warmth and love. I just held him, with my eyes closed in meditation, allowing light to flow down through to this beautiful creature. I don't know how long I had my eyes closed but when I opened them - the scene in front of me was so different and really surprised me. Every monk on the beach had turned around and instead of facing seaward were now all sitting watching - fascinated at me stroking a dog. I kept stroking the dog gently. I wondered if somehow the monks were learning something by seeing, perhaps for the first time, someone treating a dog with the same reverence they give cows in India.

I needed to go to Sedona, Arizona to create a new vortex (the 6th) on New Years Eve. As you enter Sedona, there is a big sign on the road that says ‘5 Vortexes. Now there are 6! A good friend who lives in Malibu beach LA wanted to come. I flew into LA and she collected me in her brand new silver convertible. What fun that was! We played like teenagers.  

We set off driving to Sedona on the 30th. Being a brand new car, my friend wasn't yet ready to relinquish control and let me drive it. We were driving through the night. I could see she was getting more and more tired and I kept suggesting I could drive. She kept refusing and I could see her eyes starting to close. She is a coffee addict and kept saying all she needed was a Starbucks coffee - to stay awake. At this stage we were on a deserted highway with nothing around. Not a stick of anything other than desert foliage – no houses, no nothing. I wasn't ready to leave the planet yet so I figured it would be a ‘very good idea to find one’! Yep, there it was – a few miles on, out of no place - there was the famous Starbucks sign. It just appeared. I could barely believe it. She drank heaps of coffee. I added reinforcements of chilled stuff in the car and we set off, with her wide awake. And we lived!  I went onto create the 6th vortex in more spectacular synchronicity.



As I've been newly writing these bits of stories for you on 'your page', if I realise the story I've written for you is a more detailed part of a bigger story I'd previously written about on my website, I've now updated those articles to include the exact the info I gave you. Always happy to update my site!

I'll give you a list of links to those articles on my website that I wrote from 1995 on, specifically to help people understand the sort of signs we are given. I called those articles 'The Signs to.......!  

You can then read these at your leisure. You will be totally tired of stories after this lot!


On another note – a very real dream I had on Friday night. I’ve often heard people say - if you are dying in a dream you’ll always wake up before you die? My dream = I was in some sort of theatre/movie house. Tickets didn’t have numbered seating. In the rush of everyone entering I was separated from my friends and so happily sat by myself at the back. A short while later, I gave a small sigh/gasp, my head fell sideways onto my shoulder and I died. 100%. It was totally acceptable to me. I was SO completely calm and OK with it. Only one fleeting curious thought I had was - I wonder how long they take to identify me and inform my family. That was the totality of my thinking. Then I did wake up and was really surprised to find I was in my bedroom and hadn’t died!



I just came across this channelling I did from Sanat Kumara in 2007. It may be worth a read sometime. Lot of truth in there.





Message 8th April



It’s so magical to walk through the waves; sharing space with the ocean, being at one with the stillness of a dark morning and watching the light slowly fill the skies. I am so incredibly lucky and grateful I have this chance to be here with my beloved ocean.  Even though my true work took me overseas to colder climates for so very long, it was all good and I loved it – but finally I have my place to be.

Got your text. Nice to see you saying it like it is – open and honest. That is an ability in itself, many have not yet attained. Isn’t it great you’re able to make more of a connection with your dad. As you say, spirituality has always been there – but it’s lovely when we feel more comfortable to more openly talk of a broader understanding of life. Communication is the universal solvent.

Incidentally, I don’t mind at all spending time answering stuff or helping. As long as it feels right, I’m happily right there! When something doesn’t feel right, I’m not there. It’s all a great reminder that when something is really fully in the flow, it’s no trouble at all to do it. And regarding you personally – I so easily see my own feeling of rightness in carrying out, to the best of my ability, an agreement made lifetimes ago with an old friend. I was super lucky and will forever thank the Universe for the circumstances of my own awakening, with Brian happening to get a job as a pianist in London, leaving the north of the UK for a while - where his wife preferred to remain close to family with their young girl, while he undertook this new job in London for a few months. That left him free day and night (after we both finished our working day), to commit so much time to handling my questions of spiritual discovery. We had an agreement for the incarnation. He carried it out. It was so much help for me and such a major grounding, which held me in such good stead for the rest of my journey. God, I was so lucky for the one-on-one fast handling – and his inherent patience and love. I later also became good friends with his wife Val and stayed friends with both of them throughout during their long and happy marriage. They were both from NZ but Val’s parents were English, hence they were in the UK for a few years. Lucky me!

Re text.

Now, gee wiz! You are asking questions that all of us ask the universe at some point in our life, hoping for a magic pill to give us a perfect answer to produce an instant result, solve all our problems and change life instantly to a wonderful path, where lessons are non existent, there’s lots of abundance (including money), everything is easy and we’re happy. Technically, that could happen. In reality, it rarely does, because we’re complex creatures and we came here to learn - and we do have to contend with an ego plus a mental and emotional body.


If it were me, and I didn’t feel I was  in a space at the moment where I totally trusted my gut feeling, I’d start by getting really clear on my work life. That would seem to be a focal point to concentrate on, as everything visible seems to revolve around it. Before I even started wondering about what I would do next, I would be sure of my current position. Once that is really honestly and truthfully established, I could work from there.

If, having removed all negative emotions (such as weariness) and physical tiredness, etc. I could genuinely feel that was truly coming to an end - then while still maintaining responsibility for its successful end outcome – I’d start tuning into the universe to spot what excited me. But to allow that to really present itself, I’d have to make sure I let go of any of my own preconceived thoughts of what that should or could be.

The ONLY reason the Wembley Om and many other things in my life, actually took place, was because I let go of any fixed ideas that what was ahead of me must be similar somehow to what I had been doing or knew how to do. Wembley was so left field, it was unbelievable. I was near the end of a world workshop tour, having done tours for some years – each year having a quite different focus for content – but still always a workshop programme. If I’d been sitting in a space of ‘assuming’ the next thing I was going to do would be more workshops and therefore only be looking for new content in the next year’s programme – I could have missed it. But luckily I was open to whatever presented itself. Even when I got the Wembley idea, I could have easily pushed it away as impossible - if I had allowed the mind and emotions to kick in.  It was so far out of anything I had ever done or had any experience with at all. A million ideas of why it was impossible could have presented – including the fact that Wembley is incredibly expensive and the idea of would they even let me hire it - and all the worldwide promo needed!! Etc. etc. However, once I had accepted that was what the universe wanted me to do, along with that came a strong realization that it was me who held the vision and because it was given to me, I had to stick 100% to what felt right for me. I had so many people suggesting things to me constantly. I quietly acknowledged their ideas, thanked them - and made sure I did exactly what I felt had to be done – in absolutely every single aspect down to the food and the balloons on the day. Everything had to be resonating in the right vibration to pull it off. That part of it is quite similar to what you have to also achieve. I told you ages ago that what you were doing there – was pretty similar to the Wembley event. I meant it.



Does it feel rewarding?

Am I assuming it’s all wrong and that I’m not where I’m meant to be - because I appear to be ‘killing myself’ trying to do it?

Are the parts that are ‘killing me’ actually already getting resolved?

What parts of the work feel right and I have fun with or at least have a feeling of rightness about?

If I only had those parts in play, would it feel a different experience and would I be enjoying it?

What parts, if any, don’t feel right?

Can I change those parts?

Am I letting others influence what feels right to me to do – about anything connected with work?

Do I fully accept that I am the guardian of this space and therefore I will be the one getting the intuitive guidance and despite generous offers to alter that, I need to stick to my gut feeling.

Do I recognise a spiritual heavy ‘sinking’ feeling - when I agree to something that doesn’t feel right?

Regarding work, am I always doing what makes my heart sing and not sink!

What has changed for the better in the last 8 months?

Have I changed for the better and in that letting go are becoming more myself and less ego/mind oriented?

Are those changes helping all else connected with work to resolve?

Am I being too impatient to trust that changes occur in right divine timing?

As I am now resolving my own obstructive past agreements and patterns out of the way, can I see that once all that is gone, it could all run smoothly?

What would be the ideal scenario as regards the café?

What parts of it HAVE to be in place in order to carry out its higher purpose?

What parts, if any, detract from its higher purpose?

What parts are key to its success and without which it would fail?

What parts, if any, are really unnecessary to achieve the true purpose of this place?

Do I understand the universe provides?

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Meditation is simply a method people use to help still their thoughts. It is just one way to achieve this. Self discipline also can do it. Sitting quietly and literally saying ‘STOP’ when any thought comes in - can put a being back in control over an active mind.

Walking in nature and tuning in to the silence and allowing the connection to the trees and elementals to occur, can do the same thing.

Stilling the mind has an incredible value to the being. It leaves space to be intuitive instead of being clogged up with a thousand thoughts.

Flower essences. There are many available including Bush Flower Essences created by a great guy I know, Ian White. His are valid. However, in the case of 'thinking too much' I'm more familiar with White Chestnut, part of the Bach Flower range being effective. This flower really helps bring an overactive mind back under the control of the Soul. The one to buy is 'Bach SLEEP Rescue Remedy'. Its just the essence of flowers, all natural, interferes with nothing. It is sold in Coles and includes White Chestnut in it. All the other 5 flowers in there are highly beneficial as well.

When we incarnate, we arrive complete with our own 'light body' - our spiritual body. As we descend into our new baby body, we adopt several subtle bodies of energy on the way in - that are necessary for incarnating here. Obviously, as we're coming down from lighter frequency planes - as we go down through the dimensions of energy we adopt the lighter energy bodies first. First is the mental body (thoughts), then the emotional body (emotions), the etheric and then the physical body (the densest of the bodies). The idea is that the Soul stays on top, USING the mind and the emotions for guidance. As we know, it's easy to slip into imbalance with this and allow our mind (thoughts) or our emotions dictate the behaviour of the soul. We can see people doing this all around us. We can see people almost completely running their life via their thinking or  emotions. It is essential that the soul gets back in control of the process of their life. The essences help bring positive energy to increase the level of the soul over the mind and emotions.

Best book is Mechthild Scheffer - Bach Flower Therapy. It's an easy, self diagnostic book. None of the other Bach Flower books come even  close to this one. I'm not sure I'd be where I am today without that book  - which so clearly enabled me to see (and fix, using the essences) negative areas I needed to correct to strengthen my auric field (and my life!)  It's best to have the paperback (I think) - rather than an eBook.


How to recognise intuition

When we still an ever-chattering mind, intuition can shine through!

There is usually a gut feeling (or an essence of inner excitement) that accompanies intuitive knowing.

We can simply just KNOW.

NOTE: Even when you realize a path has finished, it’s a bit much to expect anyone to just dump everything and trust the universe will pay the mortgage! Most people test out the waters by following their heart to see where it is leading them – and once they are happy they have been listening and it will all work OK– then they can do some jumping! I jumped, but that was right for me. Others can do it their way. It’s all good.


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Re – you writing the memoirs!

Yes, you may well do just that, but it will be your experiences, which could end up being quite extensive before you’ve finished with this plane!

It would be quite hard to write mine – because SO many things that happened that can’t be brought into language form. Some things are in such a strong conceptual form they can’t be translated sufficiently using word forms in the English language. And some things that can sort of be described would be too hard to duplicate unless you’d been there.

Things we can have happen to us may be a million miles (and often galaxies) away from the incarnated life we appear to live here. It helps once we realize our so called small lives house much greater plans – such as the safeguarding of a portal.


Message 9th April

I have something to ask you. Your permission actually.

I picked up from the Ascended Realms your .... would benefit from being helped a bit. It seems there are a few things in play in their lives they had not been aware of prior to entering here and it is causing them some upset sometimes, on a deeper level. I am assured this disruption in their energy field is not a required part of their journey in this incarnation (from both their perspective and from a divine order requirement either.)  I believe it could be very beneficial for them, especially in the next few years.

Both Archangel Metatron and Archangel Michael feel it would benefit to have this out of their way, so they have a better chance to learn what they came here to do. The area is affecting them. Handling this displacement of energy in their auric fields it may well make for a more balanced outcome and a more peaceful existence. It, in no way, detrimentally affects them or the plans for this lifetime to have this displaced energy removed. Their Higher selves will approve the action also.

It is totally up to you. Today I was drawn to get lovely very small (9cm high), and almost a  match, Selenite crystal castles. Selenite is a very high vibration crystal.  They were very cheap. If you are happy, then I would get Archangel Michael or Metatron to place the necessary help in those crystals – and the codes would then pass into their fields.  Programmes would be put into the crystals, so it wouldn’t matter who got what. They can choose or even swap. The programmes are similar anyway.

If you want me to do it, I’ll do it while you are away and will give you the little crystals when you return. Just let me know - text or carrier pigeon or whatever. 

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To make it easier, this is what you would be agreeing to – and only this - so you are only agreeing to Divine Order. Anything that is not in Divine Order cannot occur.

I give permission for Archangel Metatron or Archangel Michael of the Highest dimensions of Light, to give assistance to ........,  to correct any detrimental energy in their space that is not serving their highest good and is not in Divine Order.

So it is.  


SELENITE. These are powerful high vibration healing crystals that deliver clarity of mind, by cleansing the aura of negative energy build up, both within the physical and the etheric body. Can be powerful for activating dormant abilities from past lives. Selenite embodies a high vibration energy that works to help you to bring light down from the higher realms into the physical body, to create personal transformation. The white or transparent crystals have a strong vibration that may open the crown chakra and the soul star chakra. This will assist contact to the Divine Mind and to access the Angelic realm.


I know I’ve mentioned this before but just to make it really clear. Yes, I know, its silly, but I like to give accurate information and make things clear. I’ve seen the damage caused in people’s lives when they haven’t grasped the importance of truth. Which, while I am on the subject, the Waterman at the organic market - gives free glasses of water to many of the regulars, not only me! I was just being smart mouthed!!

So, getting back to the subject. I saw that some of the answers I give you, can also help others. So, I decided to take some of them - edit out anything personal - and store them ready for the next update of my Q and A book. I just wanted you to know, in case you’re ever reading something of mine and see the same answer I wrote for you. Just know - I am lifting the answer I gave you and adding it to the book. I'm NOT taking an existing answer I previously gave someone else and just copying it for you. For some reason, it's important you know that. Ha. Maybe its me covering my tracks again, for the banquet - so you can't say  'Well, that wasn't hard for you to do. No big deal. You just copied answers for me. You could have done better than that!! Oh boy, I can't wait for this conversation to happen 'up there'! It's going to happen. I know it is! I think I can hear Metatron laughing and saying he has a ringside seat booked!

Other bits of intuitive story confirmation.

I’d given a day workshop in London and during the workshop I’d talked about trusting Divine Order. I explained about surrendering instead of getting impatient; for example – when we get stuck behind a slow moving car or we just miss the green traffic light or miss the bus to work.

I spoke about a time as a teenager when I was on the way home from a lecture in the city of Sydney. I was in my boyfriend’s VW beetle car. We were travelling on the main road past Central station, around Glebe. I suddenly felt we were going too fast (we actually were within the speed limit) and asked him to slow down. He just laughed and ignored it. So, I said it again, a bit stronger this time! Laughingly, he slowed the car way down to a crawl and said ‘is that enough’? Just in front of us, a car came careering straight across the highway from out of a side road – drunk/ heart attack/who knows! My boyfriend (pretty smart with calculations) estimated it would have totally collected us – had we continued at the previous speed.

Another time, I was standing at the service counter in a busy local shop waiting to be served and a friend of mine came in with her young son in a stroller. We started chatting. For no apparent reason, while continuing the conversation with her, I put my arm around her shoulder and steered her (plus her son and myself) away from counter to the next aisle to chat. A couple of minutes later the entire long glass cabinet shattered into a million pieces everywhere (before safety glass). It goes without saying we would have been injured, as others were. Pity I hadn’t picked up why I was moving us, or maybe I could have warned everyone. Ha, yes they would  think you are nuts!

Anyway, the day after the workshop, one of the attendees contacted me to tell me the story of what happened after they left my workshop. Not often going to London, her and her sister had made the most of it and gone to a show and had some dinner. They arrived on the train platform late at night. Trains run hourly to their destination north. They saw no indicator on that platform showing the timetable for the next train – so her sister dived off, saying she’d check to see if there was an indicator on the next platform. She yelled to her ‘No, stay here'. But it was too late, the sister had gone. A few minutes later their train arrived – and of course left - without them – as no sister! The sister returned and they started to argue about now having to wait for an hour. Then they looked at each other and laughed and said – ‘Sandy said to surrender – and trust Divine Order.’ So they did. They patiently waited and caught the next train. They got out at their train station and began the walk in the dark past the fields to their home (they are country people).  Walking past one of the fields, they heard a noise that sounded like pain. They listened and heard it again – so they climbed through the fencing and started heading into the field. They found a mare in the middle of foaling but the foal was stuck and the mare was in real trouble. Struggling and weak, with just some legs of the foal visible. They could see a porch light on a farmhouse in the distance. One said I will stay with her, you run and get help. They also rang the police (you can do that in the UK!) The police arrived just before the farmer – and my friend gave a great rendition of how useless they were! Anyway the farmer came running, having phoned his vet from the farmhouse. To cut it short, after some on the spot surgery on the mare, the foal was delivered; the girls stayed and watched it all.

The farmer was so grateful, loved the horse, hadn’t expected an early delivery of the foal so had allowed the mare to graze anywhere in the field.

He invited the girls to come back any time to see the foal. He asked if they would like to name her as they had saved her. They did. I’ve forgotten the name they chose but I recall it was amazingly appropriate. They visited the foal and the mare several times. They said they totally knew that if they’d caught the earlier train they’d have missed the drama and not been able to help. She said the event was big enough to make sure neither sister forgot the lesson they received that night.



Good Friday 19th April. Full pink moon. Easter. Passover. (Brothers birthday)



I wouldn’t worry about me having to repeat myself. I’ve been doing that consistently since I started on an active path of helping people – a very long time ago. It is totally OK. We know from raising children, we often need to repeat things many times until they get it. That is totally OK. The same applies to adults- all of us are in the same boat - we will keep hearing something until one day it clicks.


No, we’re not only here for ourselves individually. In the earlier lifetimes, it’s more about individual growth and for those lifetimes much of the person’s attention is just on themselves.

But as we evolve, we begin to expand our plans to also help others grow. We start to make agreements during our pre-incarnational plans with the people we choose to incarnate with – to help them also gain what they are after – which can be work/ personal spiritual goals/learning/karma balancing, etc. All are helping each other.

When we are evolved, we’ve moved to a greater understanding of the universe. Love, compassion and wisdom have grown to a level where we see that helping others (called a role of Service - the Divine Will of God – 1st Ray – Blue – a Ray of energy overseen by Ascended Master El Morya) is the place to be. At the same time as helping others, wherever in the universe and with whomever that may be, has the added benefit of also helping us evolve more – as every step of the way teaches us something new and love grows within us. It all helps toward the end goal of unconditional Love. This is not expected to be learnt in one lifetime or even several.  It’s the long term goal of absolute love for EVERYTHING.

My own personal spiritual goal I mentioned to you (tattoo) was ‘To be willing to form a relationship with everything’. That was one way I realised would help me closer to the main goal of UL. To achieve ‘willingness’ means you have to break down all resistances to connecting with things/people. If, for example, you had a hang-up of not being comfortable with (and therefore avoiding) badly disfigured or disabled people – to be able to be ‘willing to form a relationship’ – means you have to let go of that blockage.

The reason for coming here for this special time on Earth as she moves in her own evolution, was pretty much for the Earth mother, Earth …and the universe. What happens here on Earth is a part of, and effects, the rest of the universe.

The reason we have attention on ourselves as an individual is because in order to fulfil our work hererequires us to sort ourselves out! That needs a certain amount of searching within, to spot the things that need to go. But that is all the internalizing needed by us – to note what ‘needs to go’. The more introspective we become, the harder life becomes. Long ago, in the hermit days or when we sat on mountain tops contemplating the universe, it worked fine - but we are past that. It’s not for this time period (for any lightworker) - for our current purpose on Earth.

 Getting our stuff out of the way (releasing) does many things.

1. It creates pathways (blueprints) for humanity to do the same.

2. It means our own light frequency is increased - which adds to the overall light vibration of Earth. This applies especially to Lightworkers (who are all evolved beings) who, after they clear themselves of old patterns, are able to add/channel huge amounts of light

3. It means we individually are in a clearer, brighter, better space to help or teach others.

There are other millions of amazing things it does, such as getting us clear enough to be intuitive and code vortices!!

Re the things you referred to. The social things like going to school, making money, marriage, kids, buying houses, work, play, friends, etc. – are the way we learn.

In other words unconditional love is learnt from these very interactions we undertake in society. We see and feel and gain understanding and tolerance as we experience all these interactions society offers us in so many different forms. The greater learning for us comes when we’re able to intuitively select the interactions that will benefit us the most - and leave behind the ones that were prompted by ego or the mind or our emotions.


Are we supposed to live so as to accomplish unconditional love?

Not really. We are supposed to live in the best way we can, applying integrity, ethical behaviour; helping where it feels right to do so (and not where it doesn’t); understanding others and their situations as best we can (when it feels right to do so); being tolerant; being compassionate without letting our emotional body rule us; doing the Right thing (not society’s right thing or the legal right thing) but the KNOWING Right thing in the various circumstances of our life – and taking the time to BE us - tuning into the essence of who we really are, so that our light shines for us, everyone around us and the planet.

Acting in this way, as best we can –will accomplish unconditional love, without us consciously working on that as a goal.



Don't ever be concerned about asking questions. It's my job!  And in your case, my friend, it's a pleasure to help. Plus it helps my defense if you try to tell me I didn't do enough! Ha. I only wish I'd had a magic smart phone that supplied answers for my many questions.




20th April


Hello angel 

Not easy for any of us coming back to work after time off. It’s tough! Lucky you are too!

Thank you for introducing me to your mother. Thank you for the trust. Appreciated. Nice lady. Easy to talk to.  It was no accident she was there at same time as us and sat where she did  - next to us!

Just to put your mind at rest – nothing was said you would not have been happy to hear if you were standing there. You know me anyway – I give away nothing! Neither did she - other than to mention you had blond hair as a child and that ‘her boys were gentle’ growing up. Oh yes, and she ‘didn’t think you would get a tattoo’ (I know that already!) Even if your mum had mentioned (she didn’t and wouldn’t) anything personal, I’d have stopped it – tactfully. I only want to know what you are willing to tell me.

The rest of the talk was mainly chatting about her 4 month visit to the UK - London, Paris and Isle of Man, and her views of each place. And other odds and ends such as our combined disbelief at the amount of people who panic buy food the day before a public holiday! By the way, we were not talking about women's stuff at all – not for a moment.

There were a couple of points where it was possible for me to test the spiritual waters a bit, so to speak. At one point your mum commented something like – ‘Well, you only get one life, so you may as well do it now’ (I forget what the ‘it’ was – not important and not relevant.)  I tentatively said ‘Well, I’m not so sure about that. I think we get a chance to have another go at it or perhaps many times.’ Your mum immediately agreed and mentioned she is really happy to come back here for another life again. Then she said – ‘You have to come back a lot of times though to meet the people you want to meet’. I said, ‘I think there’s a lot of pre-planning goes on to make sure we meet people we want to meet in our life. Otherwise, it would end up being be a bit of a hit and miss affair’. She totally agreed and she obviously understood completely.

My idea (may be wrong) is that your mum is in a place (as many spiritual people are) where she has some understanding of spiritual stuff, but doesn’t realise many other people around share a similar reality. Time has moved on in society and there’ve been huge changes in consciousness. But this is not always realised, especially if you stick with the same friends or if you never speak out. I reckon we’d be hard pushed now to find many people who can’t happily relate some episode in their life they feel was spiritual/psychic/ intuitive/paranormal based, etc. But until we realise many people are open to these concepts, we stick to talking about what they think is real - and make status quo comments like ‘you only live once’! I think the main reason for not communicating one’s spiritual understanding is purely that - not realising many people have woken up ( to some degree) to spiritual ideas. These days, the influence of many TV shows have made these sort of ideas more acceptable to discuss. Of course, occasionally, the reason not to bring up such ideas stems from a person’s lack of confidence in their spiritual beliefs or feeling they don't have a full understanding of them. That lack of certainty can make some people reluctant to go out on a limb and say something that may be considered ‘way out’.

On another subject - it’s said sometimes tattoos are a reflection of the soul. Although not always true for sure, it is in my case. Each of the 4  that I have are truly a part of my soul – the OM – the Rumi quote I adore that reflects how I think – my spiritual goal written  in Tibetan  (Tibet had a major role in my lifetimes) - and the Metatronic cube which reflects my work and interest.

Just putting my 50cents in there!!

Keep the questions rollin!! 





It may be of benefit to contemplate on this idea


It is OK to be wrong

I don’t have to be right

Being wrong does not make me less of a man

People are respected who are able to comfortably and easily say they were wrong.

Humility is a noble spiritual quality

As an idea, being wrong is of no more significance than being right

I have won over my ego and have no qualms about saying I got it wrong

I have gone beyond having to be right

I am not my ego – it’s safe to be me

I release any idea people will think less of me if I admit to being wrong

I release the idea that if  I show I can be wrong, people may trust me and my opinions less.

What is the core reason I can’t easily say I was wrong?





I guess you've already realised your interest in hearing people’s life stories fits perfectly with your goal to learn about humanity and how they respond and handle things. That second hand information is valid to be added to your own overall experience in these few lifetimes – in line with your fast tracking route to increasing your knowledge.


  Easter Message on


Hopefully, you found the Easter card I gave ......

You know how you've said a few times you don't want me think 'it's all about you.' And I laughingly say, 'Well, actually it is' which is my way of saying you are playing a part in my work and my agreements - quite aside from being a friend of old.

Well, I just want you to know my new article is not about you. Although it's obviously about all of us. I wrote it having observed several friends (not Jo) get their feelings mixed up and waste time - often years. If I've observed several, then I figure there are many more out there doing the same thing.  

If you ever fancy checking out the organic raw foods cafe, here is their website  You may not like it, it doesn't have chemicals in it. Ha. I had the hemp burger. Loved it. I guess they save a lot of time not cooking!


A comprehensive video (37 minutes) for Lightworkers  - ‘down to earth’ explanation by Lorie Ladd about consciousness in the 3D Earth and beyond.

Understanding the 3D Matrix - YouTube...Lorie Ladd


Hi angel, I just wrote this for you but as often happens I then see it could help others, so it may well be included in an article.

As you say, we aren’t here for no reason. It’s not an accident we are incarnated here. We didn’t mistakenly turn left instead of right and end up on Earth.

The main thing reason we’re here is to deliver the most amazing turn around in the universe - to bring sufficient light back into Earth to help her move in her evolution. To raise the vibrational frequency of a planet that had dropped into an incredible dense energy and we’ve succeeded in achieving the majority of that and the rest is happening. All the 3D stuff is up on the surface now to be transmuted - and no longer hidden. We’ve succeeded already in creating the higher vibrational 5D Earth and that is available now for all who raise their own vibration to that frequency.

And at the same time as achieving that, we want to achieve, as successfully as possible, all the goals we agreed to prior to arriving here (i.e. our service in helping others and the planet) as well as the personal goals we set for ourselves for the incarnation which include gaining greater understanding, wisdom and love for all life.

We are aiming to remain sufficiently grounded and present in the moment so as to interact with humanity and nature to gain the learning and growth we desire, while remaining detached enough so as not to get caught up in the myriad of 3D stories that make up life on Earth.

To work toward a place of sufficiently surrendering our lower incarnated self to allow a higher knowledge to reach us. To continually let go of anything that is not who we truly are.

To act in truth and integrity and rise above judgement and criticism of ourselves and others.

To get negative ego, mind and emotions out of the way sufficiently for them to stop controlling most of our life and surrender to ourselves, our Higher self – for more accurate guidance.

Remember you have a team ready to help you – on Earth and in the higher realms. Call on them when you need a helping hand. Earth is full of elementals who love to help. Call on the various nature kingdoms to give you a helping hand and bring you healing.

And to learn to enjoy the place, take the time to stop and smell the roses – see new places, meet new people, keep those around we enjoy spending time with  - learn quickly from those we don’t and move on – have lots of laughs and fun, some wild romances, love and appreciate many people and things, learn the love between pets, leave as little unfinished as possible, do our best to remain friends with people unless it doesn’t feel right, get over grievances quickly, find the special qualities in everyone, seek the positive view and be as positive as we can, help when it feels right to help and not otherwise, keep acknowledging to ourselves when we intuitively get it right, try and learn the first time something happens, always remember there is a higher picture to every single event, know we are capable or we wouldn’t have come, know we have the gifts and abilities to do the job or situation in front of us or we wouldn’t have attracted it, learn to trust our own intuition and knowing, don’t hand our power over to others to make our decisions, realise making positive affirmations about life works more in our favour than negative ones,

And above all know we are creators of our own life – all the time, without exception –sometime and someplace we created what is occurring to us right now. If your creation feels really wrong and is not in highest Divine Order, change it. Your intentions and thoughts and actions can change it. If it just feels unpleasant and hard to take then let go of the reactions, learn any lesson quickly and move on. All events offer us some kind of learning or teaching, even the unpleasant ones. Even if that learning is just to see you have reactions or to learn to listen to what your gut/intuition is telling you or to stop creating that belief because you are attracting it into your life - such as a person may do who is always fearing they will get cancer or their house will be robbed. You are a creator. Create what you prefer, not what you don’t.

I think eventually we realise it’s OK to be here - and to use this amazing opportunity we have of ‘learning on Earth’ using the constant opportunities it offers to give us further growth in our evolution. Especially if this is our last incarnation, to enjoy it and the learning it presents and do our best to grab the lessons as quickly as we can so we end up living the life we prefer rather than one we need to experience for our own growth.

My daughter was discussing with me the fact that I tell the truth – 99% of the time. I explained that many times I just get around it by saying something that is true and implies I am answering their question. I am pretty good at that! Like politicians! Yes, I know I said I couldn’t run the café but that is actually true. I didn’t mean practically (which I may be able to scrape through – after spending time learning it!). I meant I couldn’t run it because it doesn’t excite me and isn’t my purpose. I was still telling the truth. And when I know someone knows the truth of something, then I can muck around. Like saying 'I was on the bottom of the list'. The point I was making is that there is no hierarchy list – except in the minds of some people with egos who think they are at the top.

Anyway, getting back to my daughter who insists there are times you can’t get out of it. She hit me with one I couldn’t answer. The only answers I could think of at the time were dismal and obvious avoidances and I haven’t had to time to dwell on it further. So, I hand it over to you. Ha. She said ‘How else could Clinton have answered instead of ‘I didn’t have sexual relations with that women’.

Incidentally, it was in Divine order that Clinton said that. Once it was proved to be a lie, the American people moved from children to adulthood as they were forced to accept their president could lie. They had Bush and all that lot providing similar learnings, but this act was a level of reality they understood. And it worked.


Hope they like the crystals when you give it to them. They are well aware on some level they are getting the help they requested (on a higher level). If they are being intuitive and not in their heads at the time, it should go smoothly. I don’t have anything more specific than it was something that took place when they were incarnating – they inadvertently collected some energy they didn’t want. It needs to go.


Well, this is just my feeling about your question so you need to always use your own resonance of truth.

I feel you are actually doing very well on your own and it may be more ideal for you to pursue that avenue some more at this time. You are doing the right things to bring the result you want.

It just doesn’t seem quite the right time maybe to approach ...on that level. The situation as it is now is fine. I feel the book’ Intuition’ is good, albeit quite wordy. I guess some people require all that explanation. It would be worth reading when it feels right to do so and just skip what you don’t need.

I don’t think it is a judgment necessarily to observe some as being immature. If it is a perception - it is what it is. It would only be a judgement if it was meant as a criticism. I have the feeling you need maybe a bit more certainty and feeling comfortable in yourself of the overall basics – enough to stand strongly in your own truth - before you associate with someone really strong in his own opinions – which I think he may well be.

What I have done is tended to cut to the chase with you, because as you know I just like stuff simple and true without all the excess.  As I said it’s something I appreciate in Jeffrey Archer. ‘Kane and Able’ was a great book. ‘Not a penny more or a penny less’ also great. Just good light reading for those times we want a little break from spiritual learning! Also loved Jean Auel’s ‘Clan of the Cave Bear’ and Ayn Rand’s ‘Atlas Shrugged’.

But in the end, you go with your gut – which I expect you have been doing as you haven’t read his book yet.

1.  Chatting the other day with ...about his partnerships and ex-wife,  he  happened  to say ‘Oh no, ....aren’t romantic! I had a think about all my different elf friends around the world – and he may be right. Although I have seen you be romantic on occasions with your wife in Pakistan, it may have been just being more human to suit her wishes. I wonder if that is something elves in human form haven’t grabbed hold of yet.

By the way, you don’t need to bother explaining something that you said was 'not a judgement'. For a start, I know if it was or not and secondly, I'm not going to make a judgment about you doing that! I am not even going to give it any thought at all. If you were busy judging everything, then I may pay some attention as it would need addressing. 

2.   How about ‘ I don’t know what would make Miss Lewinsky make such accusations about me.’ Hmmmm, maybe it would work.  

3.  A list was emailed around the internet a few years ago that had a list of things you’d done in life and you ticked those you had. I thought it may be a good idea to make my own list, including only items from that list I’d done plus expand on it with other things I had done  – totally for my daughter, who would not know many of the things I had done. I look back and think of the things I don't know about my mum's life both in her early life and the long time I was overseas.

You asked a bit about what I had done before – well this is rather an expanded view and probably there is more I am not saying! It is my daughter who will read it!

I was having a look over my list to see if it there was anything new to add and thought I'd make it available to you, but REALLY only look if it's of any interest. There won't be a test on it and I don't expect you to remember anything!!

This link is not available to the public, of course.


5th May

Hello angel,

About me!! Fully on water fast. More a less was already, except for the 2 juices I had. It’s only been a week. Test results disclosed more problems. The recognised source is air pollution. The doctor has given me a letter that gives an OK to get oxygen supply (companies won’t give it to you without  Dr.’s OK. I will if I need to - just for the odd time at home. So the situation is not ideal, depending on how you look  at it. But ‘Am I bovvered!’  - a catch phrase in the UK you may or may not know. ....and I say it – it’s fun. 'Does my face look bovvered'.

The only thing that may be able to turn this around is water fasting – and if I can be ‘bovvered’ to go through all that entails! Not so easy to experience when you really have something really toxic to handle. The only reason I’m even going there is for my daughter who I feel needs to know I tried everything possible. She’s determined to keep me here. I said What about the jobs I agreed to do when I leave. She said ‘They can wait. I need you more’. I don’t think it works quite like that! Anyway I will do it for now - keep everyone happy - as I haven't reached the exact moment yet! When I do, it won't matter if I have perfect health. I will go. Actually the timing of getting any health issue (I have always been healthy until this) is pretty perfect if you think about it - right when I'm finishing anyway - and family can be content that I 'had no choice'. You could think it was planned like that! Ha


New talking gargoyle at Denver airport

I  don't know if you have run across Gregg Braden yet. You may like him. Here is one video. It changes tack a few times, so watch for a bit to see some different parts.



9th May

I am so happy you are able to communicate with your dad on this subject. How lovely to make that extra connection. I’m not surprises he was surprised. You’ve come a long way fast. And it’s you doing it; you are merely drawing to you what you need to get there. I’m satisfied that if I leave, you’ll be OK.

I knew you’d love camping. All of you should be in your element in nature. Especially if there’s a wood or lots of trees around. The WOOD element is aligned to all of you.

Hope you got a chance to give the  crystals ......... I wrote the little cards in case you needed something to get it across.

It never matters what time you text. I read it as it came in. But when I go to bed I switch the mobile off, unlike many people who just love radiation hitting them through the night as the towers seek signals and ping them with radiation literally every few minutes.

Fast. Without thinking it through, I’d idly thought I’d be able to bring in light and energy to help carry me through. But then bothered to think! Of course, I can’t bring in light – its FOOD!!! The body can’t FULLY repair itself if food is coming in. And I can’t bring in energy either or I’ll be zooming around and the body will have to use much of its resources to handle that activity instead of getting on with healing. So, the consequence is not having much energy which is precisely what is meant to happen as part of the process. I guess long term fasting is not for the feint hearted maybe. But I am fine – albeit not much energy around so am home quite a bit now. Had some symptoms. However, I don’t think it has fully kicked in yet. That is when symptoms would really turn on. After all it does have some stuff to handle. Fasting has a very long history – back to Plato and Aristotle.  Lots of references in the bible which says fasting helps us ‘grow a more intimate relationship with Christ and opens our eyes to what He wants to teach us’. So, that’s a bonus.

I know I tell you personal stuff  but remember for me that is ‘par for the course’. Always done it, so why stop now is my motto!

By the way, our friend says she has finally got it! After all of us have mentioned it and I have really mentioned it! She has said she will stop turning everything to sex. But it wasn’t me who succeeded; her boyfriend had a talk with her about it. Maybe fed up with being embarrassed with the no filter in play. Good. She goes out of her way to embarrass people. Never have understood why. She will probably still do that just maybe not with the sex angle. We’ve had times at the market when total strangers are present, some elderly (yes, more elderly than us!) there for some help and she comes out with something outrageous. That can put all the help we’re giving in jeopardy. I know she’s new to Earth but it’s no excuse when you are given the info. All the more reason to listen to those who have been here for ages. But I love her and her heart is in the right place wanting to help.

Thank you for your light. Always welcome. Supporting each other – again!

There is a new article up written by someone else.

Edited to remove personal details

10th May

The reason I included you in that stuff we were coming up with about the daughter’s house today was so our friend gets the idea you are open to such things.

Our friends' daughter has been trying for a couple of years to sell and is really keen to do so. I’d found a couple of odds and ends and though they were necessary to be out of the way, it didn’t sort the problem. Then she said she thought it was to do with the people who had owned the property previously. Then I got it.  I said ‘it’s a couple’. Someone said ‘it’s the wife’. I said they had a daughter go missing or something and she decided they would always keep the house there for her to come back to. Possibly aborigines. The place is an old homestead in  probably an old aboriginal area.

Of course, they then died but the intention has held in time. She will sort it. Good. Saves me doing it. And its her daughter.

It’s great you and your Dad can share this journey on a similar level and in that way can support each other with posing ideas back and forth. You have come a long way in a short time. You’re a bright boy! But I already know that.


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11th May

Don’t worry. If Bill goes, he will be replaced. Someone will already be waiting to take over when he was due to leave. I also have everything in place if I go. So, you will be OK. It is far too important not to have everything taken care of.

I’m really not up on Australian politics. It doesn’t interest me. Other than watching Kevin Rudd acting perfectly when other countries went into recession by being incredibly positive and instructing his cabinet to be the same and his amazing smart move giving householders $1000 to spend. Single handedly, he kept Australia out of the recession. Total miracle. But I am totally on top UK politics and Brexit. I know it all. And the amazing higher picture which includes a lot of help toward people power and helping Britain break free of the two political party established hold. The recent countrywide local elections results were incredible. Last time anything like that was seen was about 1949 they say.

There is a plus to this fasting business. You really save money on food, plus no time spent in buying, preparing, cooking or washing up. Love it!

By the way, just thought of a tip that is useful – one I found out way too late to handle most migraines I used to get. If anyone is ever vomiting and can’t keep water down. To save dehydration, which happens easily and adds to the distress, put a squeeze of fresh lemon in water and take it in sips. It usually stays down.

If you are interested, a good 20 min video on water fasting made in 2017 I came across by a young guy. He’s pretty good. He didn’t get the age thing right (a point he mentions in the comments) and he hadn’t learned that hunger signifies the right time to end, but otherwise not bad.

A few more bits of info on here if you are interested

Re you and Dad -with your 'where do we go from here' - it's lots of fun and excitement to mull over what may be around the corner; but of course behind that, in truth, it's faith and trust in the universal process that it will show you signs in the now moment always - of the right next move. I know you know this. As we know, signs are varied but its always something we notice. It gets our attention.


I would have liked to be a fly on the wall when you answered your dad with an understanding he didn’t know you had. One of those special ah-ha moments. We had a similar experience, in a way, between my ex when he was dying and my daughter (his child). We’d been divorced for ages and he and Talia saw each other occasionally. Not estranged at all, it was just how it was. I think because she didn’t want to go to university and was a free spirit and into different stuff than him – although he was into spiritual stuff – she always felt he didn’t think there was much substance to her. The fact that she speaks fluent French, plays music by ear and is incredibly perceptive seems to have escaped him. She went to be with him as soon as she heard and she stayed there. He was at home with his 2nd wife (a very good friend of ours). She helped him so much, talked positive stuff, being perceptive and sharing wisdom and knowledge relevant to his health and all aspects connected with it. She brought him a  lot of healing and a different look at his life. He got a major surprise. He said to me ‘I had no idea of the substance, wisdom and many levels she has.’

It was great actually for her. Finally her father ‘got her’. Talk about last minute! Phew,! But at least it happened. And it nearly didn’t! He’d told his wife not to tell anyone. But she had ended up overwhelmed with carrying the burden alone and she told Talia. Divine Order working  again. Talia sure would not have been happy if he had died and she hadn’t been told.

Crystal.  Perhaps next time someone thinks crystals are weird stuff, you could mention that crystals are used in many electronic uses; used as oscillators in radios, watches, and pressure gauges, television sets and in the study of optics. Yeah!!

13th May


Incidentally, by all means have fun with trying to guess whether it’s your lesson or theirs, etc., but remember in the end it’s about trying not to think too much and just be in the moment. We honestly don’t need to know who is giving or getting the lesson. It will all just happen anyway.

How about next time you are in Coles shopping maybe you could grab the Rescue Remedy Sleep and put in the trolley!  Will help the kids hugely. It’s still Rescue Remedy but has the added advantage of one extra ingredient (White Chestnut) for people with an overactive mind. If you don't need any of the ingredients, then nothing happens with that ingredient. So its OK to give it just as plain Rescue Remedy to anyone (i.e.. it doesn't matter there is one extra flower it in). Its It’s also sold in Chemist warehouse and other chemists and HF shops. I have taken it most of my life – when needed. Totally natural.

This is what is in Rescue Remedy and what it helps.

Impatiens: For those who act and think quickly, and have no patience for what they see as the slowness of others. They often prefer to work alone. Teaches empathy and understanding of and patience with others. We’ve found it very fast-acting in alleviating an impatient attitude and lowering stress.

Star of Bethlehem: For trauma and shock, whether experienced recently or in the past. Teaches the ability to recover from traumas and to integrate them into the present life.

Cherry Plum: For those who fear losing control of their thoughts and actions and doing things they know are bad for them or which they consider wrong. Teaches trust in one’s spontaneous wisdom and the courage to follow one’s path.

Rock Rose: For situations in which one experiences panic or terror.

Clematis: For those who find their lives unhappy and withdraw into fantasy worlds. They are un-grounded and indifferent to the details of everyday life. Teaches one to establish a bridge between the physical world and the world of ideas; may foster great creativity. Is also used to bring clarity and alertness to the present moment.

(Rock Rose also handles fear - i.e. going to dentist, sitting exams, etc. etc.)


Rescue Sleep calms your restless mind providing natural relief of occasional sleeplessness caused by stress and repetitive thoughts. The 5 Bach Flower Remedies in Rescue Remedy and White Chestnut helps removing stress and repeated unwanted thoughts so that sleep comes natural. (Success stories)


I am doing OK actually. Scottie and I went way up into the higher dimensions yesterday at the market. It was great. He nearly passed out and said it was so full on.  He can take it. I was laughing. He reckoned he’s not used to such a high level connection. I said there’s a reason for that. He said ‘Yes, I stay lower than that because when I get into that area I want to stay there’. Ha. We all know about that feeling. Clever boy. Pain turned on in my lungs. I just stayed with it and it started ease and then went. The mob up there were doing something to assist. Scottie felt the pain also. I said Sorry!! Ha. I feel a bit more energy back today. But still I am only at the toxic removing stage out of the tissues. I still have the handling of bad tissue ahead of me, after the toxic removal finishes.

That’s about it really. Jo’s boyfriend chose some engagement rings and asked what she preferred – for later on, he said! Def heading that way.

A friend said they just went to a Sat market at your village and enjoyed it. I didn’t even know they had one. I may check it out some time.

Talia staying here tonight and then tomorrow I am heading to my favourite Osteopath in Brunswick Heads. Long way but worth it. Well, not that long - 40 min drive I just want to make sure all the energy meridians are balanced in the body, to give it the best fighting chance to recover.

We are coming in on Wednesday and it seems I will be OK for that.



Indeed, you are learning and fast. You are moving into your Higher Self power. SK, it’s the most exciting journey ever. I have been here one heck of a long time (since Atlantis) and I have still lived this incarnation with excitement, enthusiasm and joy. Of course, there are many times when we are pushed to the limit and almost think we can’t make it. But if we can just hang on to the basics, we are OK. The basic premises are vital to have in place, so securely we don’t go into doubt when things don’t go the way we’d planned or think they should. Sometimes things just totally don’t make any sense and we think they shouldn’t be happening to us – and then later, often way down the line, we see just how perfect that was. There is always a higher picture going on.

Yes Christianity has many pluses. But life gets even better when we’re doing things because they feel right and not that ‘it’s the right thing do’ – because someone is suffering/poor/distressed/needs help, etc. All those things count BUT only when it feels right/resonates deep within – is it then right for them and us, to step in and help. Much of the time it is the ego, mind or emotional body that dictates such moves. Example: We see an old lady struggling to cross the street at the lights. The obvious thing is to step in and assist her. But it may be that for her the win would be if she manages to cross the road unaided. It could give her that one boost of confidence she needed to shift her into a whole new thought area that she can really tackle life.

You really are spotting signs. To achieve that you have to be in the present moment, so you obviously are when you see signs. Some people take ages to do that and many never do.

I would love to hear your thoughts whenever it suits you. I am here for whatever is needed. Similar to the idea you said of texting and a spiritual Google answers.


14th May

Most people don’t focus on their intuitive next move – they rush forward, barely giving themselves time out of their head and busy life – to take a few seconds. If you continue to do that, it will become normal practice and will get stronger and stronger.

I heard an old song from Elaine Page and Barbara Dickson – no, you wouldn’t know them - way before your time! In there it says ‘No-one is ever completely on your side.’ I thought that’s not true. I am completely on your side. I will back you all the way. If an action of yours is not in Divine Order then obviously I can’t support the action but I can always support you. Our friendship has deep roots and I guess we considered ourselves for a very long time, if we took it into modern language - as BFF, which, at least from my perspective, is proving to be just that - forever. And its OK that you don't feel that connection. It is what it is and I am totally OK with that. It is quite common.

16th May


The hard part of this is drinking that much water!! And the body is indicating strongly to drink so I am responding. I am not drinking so much because I think I should! Going fine. Some energy back and more breath. Enough about that stuff. Boring.

Pam is such a wag. Love that she is clear on who she is and what she likes. When you said you would take your clothes off, ha, what a response from her. I was going to say – if it’s slow and sensual, go for it. But I didn’t!

I know this is a long way off yet, but when the time comes, remember the Jewish process of the Bar Mitzvah. As you’ll know, when the child reaches 13 he has a ceremony to announce he has reached adulthood and can be called upon for adult functions and is now responsible for his own actions. The reason this is good is because it is at this age the child needs to pull out of its parent’s aura (auric field) and stand on their own two feet. This is the reason for much of the rebellion we see in this age group. The child who has believed everything you have told them up to now, will stop automatically doing that and often suddenly start telling you that you know nothing. The Bar Mitzvah is good in that at least on a physical and mental level, the child doesn’t need to also handle that. It may only then need to handle the actual withdrawal of energy from the auric field and pull fully into their own.

We were having a discussion at the market on Sunday when one Mum said my children never tell me the stuff you lot seem to get told. I asked her what could be the reason for that (knowing full well what it was). Finally she worked out was that through loving her children so much and trying to keep them on the right path, it was seen as judgement by her children (which it was). After she expressed it, I said to her – You need to create a totally safe environment for your kids to tell you anything because they know they won’t get chastised or corrected. Otherwise forget it. Who is going to tell anyone anything if they are going to cop a serve back. It’s rather obvious but it hadn’t been to her. On a previous occasion she had told us that her son had said he wanted to bring his girlfriend home for the night. She said ‘OK I’ll make up the spare room’ and he said ‘No, I mean in my room’. She said absolutely no way. She was shocked. We asked how old her son was and he was 19. We explained as gently as we could, without laughing, that she should be happy he was being that respectful and hadn’t piled into the back seat of her car. We were all unanimous – the whole group felt it was totally OK. She couldn’t believe our response as she had expected agreement and sympathy. She is a lovely lady and she’ll get there on this subject.

OK Off to another lovely drink of water. Isn’t life exciting. Wheeeee.

17th May


After you mentioned ‘Unplan your life’, I went back to have a look at what I had said. Spotted a couple of spelling mistakes which are now corrected. BTW I’m always happy to have anything you see amiss on my website pointed out to me. I don’t care how small it is. I want my site as ‘right’ as it can be.

As I was reading about your upbringing and you saying you felt you had handled most of it. You are right, but there is still something left behind. I am able to sort that out. No idea what it is but feel its something holding you back.

Great the kids got to download. I don’t have a clear picture yet and how that went. I was thinking a couple of days ago  that if it didn’t happen soon, they may start playing up cause they know on some level it is sitting there waiting for them to clear what they don’t want in their space. I think the crystals were identical enough for them to be happy. Yes, I would also find it hard to explain to a 5 years old, how it worked!

Great that you have an open line with them and obviously intend to maintain it into their teens – where it super matters. They are still going to have secrets and that is OK. It only becomes a problem when they do things like replace a couple of birth control pills because they really want a brother or sister! Yep, my daughter did that. She never told me til many, many years later.

Kids bring us so much pleasure and do such interesting things. I recall my daughter wanted to go to a party. I don’t remember why I had said no, must have been a good reason.  Her and her friend must have sat for hours with packets of post it notes, writing ‘Talia should go to the party’ or similar. I was shopping and they must have worked hard. Every single drawer, cupboard, boxes, make up bag, everywhere and anywhere conceivable had a post note. I was still finding them for weeks. And yes she went to the party. You have to reward that kind of passion.

I have been seeing Bill there every time I come. And he’s possibly also coming other times too.

I have to come in tomorrow and pick up my electrolytes at PO. I ordered a totally pure liquid with nothing at all added. Have to keep electrolytes up as all the potassium etc. is getting washed out. So, I am meeting June at café.

Loved the bunch of messages – fun. I am really interested in everything you are experiencing. I never feel bombarded. I am used to sharing everything with you.

My stuff is not way cooler than yours. Everything we get is cool and a gift. Nothing is better than anything else.

Yes, to stay strong in the hard times is the challenge. That is why the basics are so important to be solidly in place. It’s all very well to keep wanting to rush ahead but if the basics aren’t in place, we can crash and burn.

You certainly got yourselves into an environment where healthy eating was all around you. I agree it’s not practical to go organic at the café. It may disrupt the flow of people (elementals) coming in who are used to the things they like to eat. We didn’t want to disrupt that comfort factor. But you could have 1 or two savoury items listed as Organic – dairy and GF. I haven't pushed the healthy aspect of eating much at all. I don't think I contributed much there. The reason is I know that once we really understand the concept of chemicals in food, it doesn't just affect how we eat personally but it makes it extremely hard to deliver chemicalised food to friends sharing meals with us or customers in a cafe! I knew it would be disruptive in the cafe, so for the highest good I was leaving that  issue until later. I was going to get there when I felt I could safely do so.

Re asking at night – Can you add ‘I ask the highest realms of light …… (and end with) 'if it be for my highest good'.  That will avoid the Astral plane. Don't just ask and leave it open for whoever happens to be around to respond.


18th May


I had a lovely email from the guy in the US I went to help. He is not into email or computers. Up to now I’ve only had a couple of one-liners. Today I got a lovely long message. I’m so very happy to hear he and the property is doing so well. He was a priest in Atlantis and had a temple two away from mine – his was the Blue temple – so I’ve known him a while. Just a nice guy with a good heart.

Actually I took my daughter to the Shelf a couple of months ago. She only eats organic so it was a compromise to even get her there. It didn’t work out. She did try something but could taste the chemicals in it and didn’t eat it. I doubt she would be persuaded again. Yes, I am also all organic. but I make a small exception with coffee, a salad sandwich or raw cake at the cafe.

I’ve always kind of known it would only need a good offer in place for you to sell the café. It may have been the higher reason why I made the purpose of the place known and your role in it– so you would subsequently take care about who bought it.

If a sale is on the cards, I’m not surprised Bill has been coming so much lately.

Of course I can be disappointed. May not happen often but I’m not some saint sitting on a pedestal. Still lots of feelings there – hopefully mostly positive ones. I was not disappointed about any aspect of what you said – and yes it was a big deal. I assume the tears were from relief?

I look forward to some time together to hear all that has been happening and maybe also remove whatever that lingering thing is from childhood. Always interested in every little happening. So many small things we experience have a far greater reason that we realize.

Jo is a sweetheart. I was telling her my favourite food in all the world is lobster. But they are so expensive, let alone hard to get anything but the WA rock lobster which is a mouthful only. So I never get them. She said when her son goes to stay with his dad, they have a boat and they often go out and put down lobster pots. She promised me that at the end of my fast she will give me a lobster. Yay! In fact her son is so excited by the idea of giving me a lobster (I know him quite well) is going to do it now and put it in the freezer.

On the protection subject. Sometimes, if I really want to make a dramatic statement - I prefix it with ‘In the Name of God’.

‘In the Name of God, I invoke the Gold Ray of Christ for my total protection’ (3 times.) If you want, you can also add afterwards – ‘So Be It. It Is Done’.

Just so you know for the future. When you first texted you were coming to the market. If I hadn’t been going - I would have responded immediately to let you know I wouldn’t be there. Always!


19th May

Lovely to be able to spend some time with you. It means a lot to me. It won’t be like that next Sunday – at all!

I know there are things not to say in front of kids which puts their attention on something that give us grief. I get it. It’s been a long time. I don’t mix much with kids and have no grandchildren to remind me! I really must put some thought into what you can and can’t say in front of kids.

After you left, Scottie gave me some healing. Very quiet and peaceful – nothing dramatic like the previous week. After we finished, he told me that during it he asked ‘up there’ ‘What’s going on? The answer was – ‘The entire universe is now completely forgiving her for any accident, in any time frame, she has ever committed anywhere in the universe’. Scottie said it covered absolutely everything I had ever gotten wrong --- and he was laughing and said ‘like crashing a spaceship...ooops!’ (Yes, I did) I said that’s great Scottie - just one little problem. That’s usually only done when you are leaving!

That was a lovely gift you have– to know you would connect with someone at the market – AND to know who it was – and of course you were in the right place and they stood close to you and stayed as long as was needed to pass the codes – which was codes going from them to you.

Did you ever finish holding that last crystal I gave you? The last time you mentioned it, you said you had to get back to it and hadn’t held it for the time required. I’ve forgotten now what timing that was, but I expect I wrote something out at the time.

Don’t start thinking I’m instigating any separation! I am absolutely not. I like to see you settled. Things can change for the better. Once we let go of our patterns, the universe can shift dramatically and people can behave quite differently. Take the time it needs to find your way. Don’t jump to conclusions.

I was lucky; both my husbands continually proclaimed I was the easiest person ever to live with. I think it helps that I can think logically –more like a man really – and being a Libran I can see both sides and can easily come out on the side of the most practical way to handle something - as long as it doesn’t also compromise the aesthetic value. I never had an argument with either husband – ever. A few harmonious debates – yes. And it wasn’t from me capitulating or giving in to keep the peace – but rather an ability to give and take. Libra is all about relationships and they love to give to their partners. It comes easy – but includes not losing own identity in there. I am a strong person and that strength and certainly means I don’t have to prove myself or be right – which makes for a flowing relationship. Sounds silly to say it was so good when you see it resulted in two divorces but they were wonderful times and we remained close friends with a strong bond. In both cases we had a romantic, exciting (never boring), loving and hugely fun time. We respected each other. That helps.

Thank you for the bottle of water. Very thoughtful. I forgot to mention today, I think it’s best if I have the water at room temperature and had better skip the ice. I realised I couldn’t drink anywhere near as much as I need to when it’s cold. I needed to learn that.

And I don’t know you have to stay in the café. What do I know! I’ll never say you have to be there or not. Whatever Met said  - and what is in your gut (after putting emotions aside) will be the right answer. I am not getting into it.

I had a look at the site. Look, it seems fine overall. There is some good stuff on there. Your dad won’t be led astray by the material thing, I shouldn’t think. Bit of a time consuming way to do it, but that’s OK. You are on a fast track, bypassing the useless stuff. That is my aim anyway.

Just to reiterate, a good basic reference for new people (has helped millions) is Louise Hay You can Heal your Life. I gave you a copy. It gets basic stuff addressed and a great awakening opener that is not too over the top.

Re Christian - As I said, I thought Christian was resisting the programme entering his space. I was right. I had a word with Metatron and apparently he is carrying in his aesthetic field a special code meant to come into play later. He is concerned that this programme coming in may not be discerning enough and hasn’t taken into account this special code – so that when the other unwanted energy stuff gets lifted that code will go with it. We got onto his I Am Presence and he said he will work on getting across to Christian that the special code is safe and it’s OK to let the programme go ahead. Hopefully, that will do it.   

I was thinking about you asking if you could handle the area that is still hanging around from your upbringing. I know and respect your desire to handle things yourself. It’s a great quality. The thing is it’s not just about us handling everything ourselves. Although there are things I’m able to handle alone without bringing in the Ascended Masters– which came from a long period of spiritual experience and raising my vibration sufficiently to comfortably and successfully interact with them (and not impostors at lower levels) - there are also many times I connect with them in order to handle things. So, when you ask ‘can I do it myself’ the answer is Yes, if you can make the connection to a high enough realm to successfully achieve it - then of course you can. Only you can know if you feel that connection enough yet and can do it – and being certain you have pulled off the handling needed. Because not handling these things can cause a slowing up. I would be using Metatron to handle that situation of releasing that childhood thing for you.  

I feel you’re maybe expecting to be able to do everything straight off. It’s a common thing many want. I don’t think I ever did though. I was impatient to have answers in the beginning but somehow I knew that everything else would come in the time frame that was meant and in that way I wouldn’t be thrown in the deep end with stuff I wasn’t able to handle because I wasn’t fully grounded in the basics and certain enough of my position.  You’ll find it all comes along with the progress we make within ourselves. You are seeing gifts present themselves now which will be commensurate with your current understanding. It’s not us lacking in anything or failing at something. It is just that the universe works for our best and highest good at all times.

I don’t know what gifts you will end up with, that’s your personal business. But whatever they are, will be exactly what you brought with you to get your role done and achieve your personal goals in this incarnation.

20th May


I emailed Shel to say ‘sorry I hadn’t been chatting with her for quite a while at market’. She said ‘Never gave it a thought. We know when you are in conversation with someone, it’s because you’re helping them in some way and that is what we are really at the market for – so always fine. I am glad it was O.K

And I finally got why Peter came over with that juice which he has never done before. Before you came I had been talking with him. As you know, we had a recent total change in layout when the market shifted over from the field. Well, all the vege people, except Peter were shifted nearer the entrance. And as much as Peter likes his location now, he’s losing business as people who just want veges get them where the bulk of stalls are and never go to the top part where he, and us, are. As he says, he isn’t there for the money, he’s there for the community interaction, but at the same time, he needs to make some money. He doesn’t get on with the guy who runs the market – David. He approached David the 1st week and mentioned it to him and was pretty much dismissed. So, I talked with him saying we really didn’t want to lose him as he was a special part of the market and maybe he had to bite the bullet, take a deep breathe, grab some courage and really speak to David again. I know he is worried that if he upsets David he may get kicked out. We worked out he was happy to be up there but because no other vege people were there, it wasn’t ideal. And I said we'd put our heads together and see what we could do to help as we all really wanted to help him. Anyway, I found out he did go and talk to David after I talked to him – and asked if David could bring some other vege stalls up there. This time David listened. I guess the drink was his way of saying thanks. Sweet guy.

You know you said some weeks ago – you don’t know what old people do! Just thought I’d cover that. Basically we ‘older’ people do exactly what the young ones do – except we’ve already done the night clubs/disco/rave/getting blind drunk and suffering hangovers/needing danger adrenalin like bunji jumping, etc. – so we skip that stuff generally. We’re a bit wiser now on that stuff. Aside from that, it’s all still the same, pretty much. It does depend on how healthy and fit you have kept yourself. Of course, there are some people who are just 'being old' – going to Bingo and talking about their ailments.

And there are women who don’t bother with sex – because let’s be honest, a lot of guys have no idea about love making and think a couple of minutes sex is all there is to it - so women just give up. Other than those who’ve given up – the rest of us are just as young as we ever were. So there!

21st May


You know you were saying few cafes have the range of food you guys have. I was thinking that could be because many places realize that as long as they have a reasonable selection, they can still fill the place without tons of lines as long providing what they make is worth coming back for – which makes for an easier life and way less cost to run the business. There is a guy on TV show called Hotel Impossible and he goes into failing restaurants. One of the things he does, every time, is simplify their menu, massively, and then teaches the chefs how to make each of those dishes beautifully, full of flavour and seasoning, mostly using fresh ingredients. The businesses boom. It works. When you don’t have so many lines, it’s easier to make sure each product is tasty, of quality and not dry. Then you can taste and test. Sorry angel, but we do experience some things too sweet or bland and too dry. Especially bland or dry.


I was also thinking about clearing up the angelic/human realm thing.  These don’t really cover it  - but some of the original articles I printed out and gave you way back  may be worth a look over.

One was on October 2018 I think it was about your role on Earth and another was Earth  Be yourself - Let go of everything that is not truly you.’

Basically there are two lines of evolution in the physical universe. The angelic line and the human line. You reached an evolved level in the angelic Kingdom and decided to incarnate in human form to gain that extra experience. Here is something I found that explains the Angelic Kingdom – which is your kingdom as the elemental world is part of all that.

Yes, Scottie is great with kids.

I guess the Scottie message was a follow on from being presented with some sort of etheric crown a couple of months back with the message that I had reached the point of acknowledgement for ‘selfless service expecting nothing back’. Look, these things are nice and I respect the ideas but it doesn’t mean much to me at all. I’ve had various accolades along the way from the higher realms. It doesn’t mean a lot. Forgotten 2 minutes later. Don’t need it. I know how this universe works. It’s not ‘me’. My ego doesn’t need boosting. It’s a combined effort from higher realms and people around us.

BTW, that tobacco leaf you gave me was really special. I don’t exactly get it all but it was something like we’d had our crops flooded out and lost it all and that seed had a tiny green sprout I think and it was our first planting after the flood – and it was succeeding and that was the first seed germinated. I think we both hugged and cried for a while. We were saved from ruin.

I think I got the fasting days wrong the other day. I lose track. Today is day 24. I started on April 28th.

We are coming in tomorrow morning.

I received this  - apparently 15 jokes in 3 mins. He’s not bad.


I don't get all the wild life you you get, so am happy when these birds visit me.


We have a dredge outside with lights on all night. Looks really pretty. I guess it's getting ready to start the build of the artificial reef just along from me.



Someone near my place regularly dresses the Koala, especially when special events are on like royal weddings, key football matches. I sent  a letter off this week to The Bulletin paper thanking whoever it is. Brings a smile to our face.


Incidentally, Scottie has been married before but doesn’t have kids. I know cause he told me. As ever, I never asked! Sometimes I think I am so antisocial cause I’m not into all the social detail but I love people and can talk easily to most people, so maybe I scrape through.

Google service!  I’ll have a go.

In highest truth everything is overlaid. But I will explain in a way easier to understand it.

The Earth is a ball in the centre. It has the densest vibration. All other dimensions out from it become lighter in vibration, as they proceed out from the Earth.

Next out, surrounding Earth is the 4th dimension. The lowest band of the 4th dimension is called the ‘Astral plane’. As it’s at the bottom (closest to Earth) it’s therefore the densest energy band of the 4th dimension.

The Astral plane contains dual energy – i.e. positive and negative, the same as Earth. Only the 3rd and 4th dimensions contain duality and are the only two dimensions that can provide that level of learning. The astral plane is much more restricted in what it can provide in the way of learning, as there is no physical body to learn through (and a lot is learned that way). The astral plane is slightly higher in vibration than Earth. It is a huge learning field, the same as Earth is. It has very similar happenings as on Earth, such as wars, etc. It looks quite like the physical Earth plane. In fact, it’s so similar, often when someone dies, the difference in energy is not perceived by them and they do not realize they have died. They just carry on their life as though they were still here. And they don’t seem to notice that people are not responding to them. So for those people, although they’re in the Astral plane energy field they are still operating on the 3D Earth. This explains ghosts. The film ‘Ghost’ shows this too.

In the astral plane there are many beings; negative and positive. It is full of beings that have no wish to incarnate or to incarnate again, as it’s too much like hard work. Some of them are a real nuisance and cause problems to people who stay in a dense/dark energy field (through judgements, criticism, drugs, alcohol, psychiatric treatments and maybe going into dense energy areas like some nightclubs) which makes tears and holes in their aura. This allows astral beings to get in. Even though they don’t want to incarnate, they love to experience the sensations that come from being in a physical body – so once in, they plant thoughts and they push sex to the hilt and other things such as drinking, drug taking, and anger. If someone finds themselves getting unexpectedly angry or can’t get enough sex – and this is out of character, they are bound to have one or more entities in their space. And some of them are really nasty – and this could be the source of the idea of ‘demons’. They cannot influence anyone who is keeping their aura clear.

There is no negative energy in all dimensions beyond the 4th as there is no duality.

As ever, this is my viewpoint. I could be wrong!

Does that help. As usual, its harder to get things across on paper as in person spontaneous questions arise and can be handled in the moment. But we have what we have.


22nd May

At the market when you mentioned you think you’d found the area still hanging around from childhood - and it was when your parents split when you were 4 years old. I hope you didn’t think I was chopping that off when I didn’t really address it. There was a reason I didn’t. I don’t like to bring these things up to the surface too much if I’m not in a position in that moment to help handle it. It can otherwise get quite uncomfortable when its all been triggered.

Re your dad watching that Gaia site. There are also some conspiracy theories stuff on that site. As we know, many theories are accurate and some are rubbish. The message you may like to get across to him - if that subject comes up – is that it’s easy to get caught up in those heavy 3D stories –and if we go into agreement with them, we reduce our own vibration. It’s OK to read them if we want, but it’s pretty essential to stay detached.

I don’t need a present. I'm happy with my little unicorn. All I really need is a decent hug! Really missing that.











FOR CENTURIES, alchemists have sought to change base metals into gold. But the transmutation of metals like lead into gold is symbolic of a higher and more noble alchemy -- the alchemy of self-transformation.

SELF-TRANSFORMATION was the goal of the most spiritual of alchemists. They sought a way to change the lead of negative human energy into the gold of divine energy, and some of them achieved this by using the violet flame. The violet flame (also called the violet fire) is a unique spiritual energy that can help you in all areas of your life. It can heal emotional and physical problems, improve your relationships, help you to grow spiritually, or just make life easier.

The flame is the essence of a unique spiritual light. Mystics of all ages have glimpsed a spiritual spectrum behind the physical spectrum. Radiant colors, more pure and rare than those found on earth, emanate from a brilliant, inner divine light. Just as a ray of sunlight passing through a prism refracts into seven colors, spiritual light splits into seven colors, or rays - each of which has specific divine qualities. The violet flame comes forth from the violet ray, which has the qualities of mercy, forgiveness, freedom and transmutation.

The color violet has long been associated with spirituality. Having the highest frequency in the visible spectrum, violet is at the point of transition to the next octave of light. To the ancients, this transcendental color was a spiritual rather than a physical phenomenon.

Saints and adepts throughout the ages have known how to use the violet flame, but it was only released to the public earlier this century by an Ascended Master called Saint Germain. Ascended Masters are enlightened spiritual beings who once walked the earth like you and me. They balanced their karma (paid their debts to life) and fulfilled their reason for being. They then ascended, or reunited with God. You probably already know the names of a few Ascended Masters - Jesus Christ, Gautama Buddha and Krishna.





A Blessing for You



I send you light to hold you and love to heal you

May you love, honour and cherish the preciousness and uniqueness of your own  being and of every other being in this world.

May you see you own goodness and beauty reflected wherever you look.

May you be contented and appreciative of all of Life's wonderful gifts.

May the splendour and majesty of your being, guide your thoughts, words and actions.

May any pain and fear be transformed into strength, understanding and compassion.

May the shining light of your being, radiate peace and harmony wherever you go.

May you be filled with happiness, joyfully celebrating each day you are alive.

May you be abundant in all wealth, and rich in generosity, sharing your blessings freely.

May you be a soothing balm of kindness and a fragrant blossom of love  to everyone you meet.

May you be well, whole and healthy.

May the great love and compassion of your heart embrace the suffering of all beings everywhere.

May the inner light of your purity and perfection dissolve the clouds of discord, doubt, despair and conflict.

May the intelligence and wisdom of your infinite mind give you clarity in a confusing world.

May you trust that you are loved, cared for and supported by the infinite - always.

May you possess the precious magic jewel of gratitude that transforms all life into a paradise.

May you pause for a moment each day to remember you are blessed, and calling forth the full power and magnificence of your own being - may you pass it on to all beings everywhere.


Ooops! How did that get on the page!

The Forest World




Wood nymph


Carving ideas

Wood spirits by TJ Kleens





My charismatic friend

Great sense of humour


Great comprehension ability



Good ability to get on with staff and customers

Understands how to provide good customer service


In the present moment

Able to express emotions

Great organization skills

Good businessman




Quick on the uptake


Added…. ‘Good looking’

 Knocked out ‘Romantic’ as you didn’t agree. (You are…. but maybe not right now.)

The Art of Allowing


There is no more fight. There is nothing more to battle. That is all old stuff and it is all over. All your thoughts are but a passing panorama of our human experience.

The only thing you have to win over are your own thought patterns.

This is accomplished by a gentle, loving, understanding, and non judgemental attitude to yourself.

It is through the total allowance of the Great Flow to be the background of your entire experiencing.

In this Flow when you can allow it, Grace enters you. It becomes eternally present in your awareness.

In this Grace you are flooded with a Presence that begins to ‘take your breathe away’.

You breathe more deeply, more consciously and it flows in and through your life, touching everything about you and around you.

And the Presence takes you over, you begin to become it and it becomes You. The knowing of this leads you to let go more because in your life, you begin to see that absolutely everything is taken care of. It all happens so easily so effortlessly.

There is nothing more to fix, to release, to “work” through. Just a simple choice of experiencing the up/down, expand/contract motion of human experience as an opportunity to test your wings and discover what thoughts you will entertain and what no longer serve you.

The majority you will allow to pass without any attention.

You find that you can create by the simplest intention of thought and that you no longer wait for results because you know, without any shadow of doubt, that in the Flow, in this state of Grace, all is most beautifully present even though you do not see it immediately.

And like miracles, sometimes your simple intentions can manifest in almost instantaneously, unexpected and surprising ways. In an insect on a flower you experience the solution to a next step you are making in your life. You may call them “signs”.

Life becomes a magnificent dance of allowance in Love. So in fact there is no more battle, no more win or lose. There are brief moments of appearing to hold on, and then there is Flow.

Allow Grace to enter. Let go.

I So Love You



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